Worst blog ever!

Kapag nagigipit ka sa oras at pera. Hindi mo maiiwasang magisip ng hindi maganda. Lahat na lng puro nega. Para bang ngfflashback lahat ng nega sa yo at gusto mong lumundag sa tuwa at sumigaw na, isa akong malaking "K". Nasa punto na din akong walang kakausap sa akin na hindi magandang balita ang dala kundi malilitikan ka sa akin. Wag ka ding basta basta sisingit sa mga iniisip ko at mapapatalsik kita ng wala sa oras. In short, hindi ako ito. Hindi maganda nangyayari sa akin. Isa-sahin natin...

1. Hangang ngyon hindi pa ako nakakabayad ng tuition fee ko. Nagigipit ako sa oras. Wala naman akong sinisisi. Miscommunication lng. Sana tanggapin pa ako ng school. Sa dami ng extension ko sa knila, Lord have mercy on me.

2. Nawawala buscard ko. 5 zoner buscard! Nung Sunday ko lng binili. Pinagsapalaran ko lng bumili kasi alam ko after nito wala nkong perang ilalabas.

3. Sumasabay ang host ko sa pagbibigay ng kung ano anong instruction. Magpapaalam na nga ako e. Maghanap na sila ng iba!

4. Wala akong load. Isang importanteng bagay sa akin ngyon. (E d bumili!) Please refer to number 1 and 2. Pano na ang kabuhayan??

5. Pag ngllog-in ako sa Skype. Nakikita kita! Pagnakikita ko pangalan mo parang winawagayway mo sa buong cyberspace ang pagiging tanga ko sa yo!

6. At isa ka pa Facebook. Hindi ko namang intention na mgpost ng ganun e. Bakit nyo pinapalaki nyo?

7. Deadline..deadline sa extra-curricular activities. Actually, hindi naman problema ito. Hindi lang ako makapgconcentrate. Hindi ko maumpisahan at imposibleng tapusin.

Worst blog that I posted. Puro nega. But I cant resist! Hindi ko alam kung pano ilalabas lahat ng ito. Unti-unti ng ngffiled-up sa utak ko. Sumisingit. Nanunuot. Nangangamoy na. Nabubulok. Dapat ng tanggalin.

Promise. Reresbak ako!

Answered Prayers..

These were my prayer request this year. I wrote these last January 02, 2010. He gave His promise to me that day and I always pray for these. And I cant believe that now, October 19, 2010, barely 9 months. He answered my prayers with bonus!

1. To have work permit or student permit in Denmark. This is my ultimate goal right now. I don’t want to be an au pair forever and I really wanted to start my new career by studying or working. I am starting now to find alternative options to stay longer here. I want to stay here for more 2 or 3 years. --- I was accepted last month in KEA as a Multimedia design and Communication student and I know He will also provide my tuition fee.



2. To visit Paris. I hope this summer I can visit Paris now and if most likely with side-trip again and this time in Germany. --- I visited Paris last summer with Brenda though I wasnt able to visit Germany but that was a blast!



3. Visit 2 more countries. Again, I don’t want to end this year without visiting more countries and probably in Spain, Italy, Norway or Switzerland. Anything goes and anything can happen. --- I wasnt able to visit 2 more countries but I've been to beautiful place of France, (Sainte Tropez and Le Praz de Lys) with side trip in Geneva, Switzerland and Nice.



4. To have a birthday bash! This will be my first time to celebrate my birthday away from my family and outside of the country and I pray that God will give a memorable birthday celebration. -- I had a birthday bash. I lost my bike and I had 2 stitches in my gums. This is truly memorable one.



5. To finish my Danish Language until Module III. I am now in Module II and I am determined to finish it until Module III. ---I am in Module 4 and determine to finish Module 5



6. To find new family. Also, this year, my contract will end in November and I pray that I can find family to live-in probably in Norway if I can’t have working or student visa. -- I am reallyy bless with my host family now and hopefully to find somewhere to live in while studying.



7. Christmas vacation in the Philippines. I am excited to have vacation in the Philippines. Even though, it is 2-weeks vacation only, I’ll spend it wisely with my family. --- Hindi pa tapos ang taon! God knows my desire and He knows that I misses my family so much!

I will possess this land, this is my desire. May God grant the desire of my heart.

Never go weary in trusting and believing Him!

You can choose how you will responseto your problems. You can let them make you hard. You can let them make you weak. Or you can use them to create something beneficial. -- John Maxwell

You opened the wound..

You said you know me. You said you will never abandon me. You said you will never hurt. But what are you doing right now. You dont know what damage you made. I dont know how to trust again. I dont know how to love again. This wound will mark forever. A scar that will remind my fears everyday. I hope you are happy now. This is me and this is will I be.

I miss you..

When i woke up this morning. I just felt that I miss you. I wanted to send you a message. I wanted to call you and I wanted to talk you. About everything and how are you, but you made a decision and same here. And I will always miss you.

WHAT MAKES A PERSON HAPPY?

People think that I am not happy of what I am right now. Others try to talk to me and convince me to let go my excess baggage and move on. Until now I am trying to assess myself, am I not really happy? Am I in the stage of denial? I am weird and different, as I explained it before. I am quite and reserved but that’s who I am. But it doesn’t mean that I am not happy and still devastated in my life. I have to tell over and over again. Being alone doesn’t mean you’re sad and being a single is not a curse, so if I choose to stay like this for AWHILE. I think there’s nothing wrong with that. I know that I don’t have a gift of celibacy, I know that. And CHOOSING not to have a boyfriend is still sane, Yes, my past have a big factor on this. Two love, two men but same fate. And I don’t regret anything about this, in fact it made me stronger and learn so many things, one is don’t depend your happiness to anyone. Believe me. Everything is ok. Everything is fine.

I am sick and tired hearing people asking if I have a boyfriend now, what’s new with my love life and the worst thing; my aunt is worried that I might end up being an old maid. Hahahaha! I know, I know. They are just concern and they love and I love them for that but sometimes it’s getting to my nerve and I fell pressured about this. If I go home and don’t have somebody to introduce what will people think that I am not still getting over it. Come on people! But anyways, life’s like that. As long that I know myself. I know what the real score is. I am not scared.

I am weird and different. Take it or leave it!

I hate my name! U-R-A-N-I-A

Who would give that name to her daughter? Well, my father did! And I hated it. I seldom used it during my grade school days and then one teacher asked me to think of one characteristic begins with my name. And I thought, UNIQUE, from then on, I live with it.

When I was in grade school, I was the first female photojournalist in our school and I got Photojournalist of the Year.

During my High School, instead of competing academically, I focused myself in getting awards as a class and instead of hunting upper year boys, I saw myself bullying the school administration.

When I entered College, instead of trying things like drinking and smoking or doing stuff to test my legal age, I devote myself inside the church. I was the youngest and the only girl who played bass then.

Then, when I worked in the Business Central, Makati, instead of staying late for a party or drinking and bar hopping, I entered Law School, taught English for Koreans and exploring the suburb place of Manila.

And now, instead of taking my own picture profile, I want to take other’s profile and getting the best of it. Instead of reading Twilight Saga, I’m hooked at John Grisham and Dan Brown’s books. Instead of watching romantic movie, I’m enjoying blood, guns and goons. Instead of my talent is singing or dancing. I found myself in front of computer and exploring software. And instead of looking for my future husband, I am in my own room, thinking how to live my single life to the fullest.

I’m weird and different. So what? I can live with it. :)

Unexpected Encouragement from Ptr. Precy

August 1, 2010 ----- While were eating after the service, Ptr Precy suddenly uttered this words: You will going to study here. It was music into my ears and my heart jumped into joy. As if I was accepted in the school and the immigration gave my visa. These are the words that i need from a woman of God. A confirmation that I am on the right track and an encouraging words during the time that i feel to give up.

"Those who are lifting the world upward and onward are those who encourage more than criticize."
- Elizabeth Harrison

GLOBAL IMMIGRATION

State of Arizona made it history across the immigration topic. Federal government blocked the provisions of the law making it a crime to fail to apply for or carry alien registration papers and "authorizing the warrantless arrest of a person" if there is reason to believe that person might be subject to deportation which led this to protests and rallies. And also these motivate some people to open a debate about immigration and rights.

A CNN reporter said during an interview with one of the deported man in Arizona, “They are not criminals; they are just people who wants to have a better live in a better country.”

I am not good at Immigration Law when I was in Law school neither I am interested in any immigration law in any country until now that I am living and working in a foreign country. When this news broke out, I immediately read my rights as an alien and what’s the process to be immigrant. Yes, although this things happened, I still have plan to stay longer in this country. This is not an easy decision. Who wants to be away from their family and friends? Who wants to experience racial discrimination? Who wants to start all over again? As the reporter said, it’s all in the name of a “better life”.

I can’t blame the government if they keep on revising their immigration law and makes it harder to the people who want to have it. It’s their own prerogative. However, blocking sensitive provision for the immigrants and also illegal immigrants would be tantamount to express racial discrimination. Furthermore I can’t blame people who decide to take risks and stay illegally in a country. Again, I want to emphasize, they are not criminals. People from third countries are intelligent, clever, hard worker and independent people. We are just born from the other side of the world and want to have a chance to prove ourselves.

Global debate on Immigration will take a long time to come up a decision who and what is right. Both parties have reasonable ground to defend their side. However, this is a mind-opening experience for all on how we treat people humanely and with respect regardless of age, sex and color.

Tell me when...

When do you know that enough is enough?
When do you know that you live each day to the fullest? or
When do you know that you fight a good fight?

Sometimes it is easy to answer what, who, where, where, how and why but answering when, I found it difficult because it requires patience which im trying to learn it by heart until now.

When you are in an awkward situation, At which point can you say this is enough and I have to move on. And when you are in the situation where everybody envy you, at which point can you say that I live my life to the fullest and I want to try something new. Or when you are in the most difficult situation, wishing that it is just a nightmare but keep fighting on it, at which point can you say that I fight a good fight and I need a break.

I hate this feeling. I feel so uncomfortable. A lot of questions in my mind and my emotions is getting to my nerve. I learn how to use this "uncomfortableness" in a positive way and to motivate me. But sometimes, I am so afraid. Really afraid.

I'm just a little girl, sits in a little room and dream a home for me..

When I came here and live for few months. I learned so many things about myself. One thing I learned about myself is that, I have passion in photography and a lot of people find it good (ehem). So I decided to make a business out of it. I do photo coverage and video editing in some events. The last event that I worked on were the 112th Philippine Independence here in Denmark and Jesus is Lord Church 12th Anniversary. And the feedback was fine. And now, I am working on Pinky and Claus Wedding on August 5. I made the invitation also. Also, a Sporfest in August 7 and a conference on Sept 6. Whew! I thank God for all this blessings and I hope I can publis a website for this small business. I need now is a partner who knows how to handle business seriously..:)

I made also an account in Flick. I just want to be a photo of the day. Just one day. Please..:)

Here's the link: http://www.flickr.com/photos/mayarnaldo/

"WE CANT LOVE GOD" -- William Ofori

I heard Kuya William said "We cant love God, we are confused if we said that we love God" I stop and began to think the logic about it and yes, I became confused. Evidently, there's a bible verse saying that we should love God with all our heart, mind and soul. But he added, how do you love God with all your heart, mind and soul? By money, by our praise and worship, by our service? And that my confusion lay in the black coffin. God doesn't need all of that. We don't love God first but He love us first. And this love should be showed towards our neighbors.

I know this. Very basic principle of the bible. No need of interpretation and need not to read between the lines. But sometimes this basic principle tends to forget first. I'm guilty! I forgot the true meaning of love and how to love. The groundwork of being Christian. I was distracted of lights and glam, the concept of staying abroad. I just moved to another place but the bible is still the same.

I had great time in the church. I was focused on the ministry and I didnt allow the Spirit to flow in my worship and today, God didnt let this Sunday to pass without embracing me and feel me that He is always right by my side.

Thank you for the blessed day.

SUMMER IN PARIS

BIENVENUE!

We decided to spend our summer in Lovers’ City, Paris. We booked our ticket in Norwegian Airlines. It’s quite expensive because we booked just two weeks before the date. But since it is Paris, we didn’t care about it. We landed in Paris Orly Airport at 9:00 and went right straight to the Tourist Information because we haven’t booked any hostel yet. We tried our luck to find one there. The transportation is quite confusing. There are so many lines and connecting lines. We were shocked in their trains, its an old and not too clean station and train. We didnt know how to open the door. There's a lock that you should open the door and for this kind of place that is famous and glamorous. The lock is inappropriate. Service door to get out of the station malfunction when Brenda entered her card. And she ended up crawling down to get out. I should have took a picture of that!

From Airport to our hostel:

ORLYVAL (Anthony station) >> RER B (Cluny La Sorbonne ) >> Line 10 Metro (Maubert Mutualite)

Fortunately, we got good one in Quartier Latin. is an area in the 5th and parts of the 6th arrondissement of Paris. It is situated on the left bank of the River Seine, around the Sorbonne University. Known for its lively atmosphere and bistros, the Latin Quarter is the home to a number of higher education establishments besides the university itself.

Quartier Latin

BVJ Centre International de Paris

44, Rue des Bernardins 75005 Paris

Tel No. 0143293480

The place is quite decent. We were 8 girls in the room. We paid 29 Euros per night with Breakfast. After we checked in, even it is late and dark, we explored the place and to our surprise, we got a good place. It was just few blocks to Notre Dame and from there you can see the Eiffel Tower. We wanted to go to Eiffel Tower by walking but they close at 1am. So we decided to go back to the hostel and rest.

DAY 2 – We woke up early, ate our breakfast early and start exploring Paris early.

Notre Dame de Paris, is a Gothic, Catholic cathedral on the eastern half of the Île de la Cité in the fourth arrondissement of Paris, France. It is the cathedral of the Catholic Archdiocese of Paris. It’s is widely considered one of the finest examples of French Gothic architecture in France.

The Panthéon, is a building in the Latin Quarter in Paris, containing the remains of distinguished French citizens. Including Voltaire, Rousseau, Zola, Dumas, Hugo and Marie Curie.

Place de la Bastille, The large ditch behind the fort has been transformed into a marina for pleasure boats, the Bassin de l'Arsenal, to the south, and a covered canal, the Canal Saint Martin, extending north from the marina beneath the vehicular roundabout that borders the location of the fort.

Musée du Louvre and the Pyramid, is one of the world's largest museums, the most visited museum in the world, and a historic monument.

Jardin des Tuileries, is a public garden located between the Louvre Museum and the Place de la Concorde in Paris

Place de la Concorde (Harmony Square) is one of the major public squares in Paris, France.

Arc de Triomphe, the triumphal arch honours those who fought for France, particularly during the Napoleonic Wars. On the inside and the top of the arc there are all of the names of generals and wars fought. Underneath is the tomb of the unknown soldier from World War I.

Fontaine Saint-Michel

Eiffel Tower, is an 1889 iron lattice tower located on the Champ de Mars in Paris that has become both a global icon of France and one of the most recognizable structures in the world. The Eiffel Tower, which is the tallest building in Paris,[10] is the single most visited paid monument in the world; millions of people ascend it every year. Named after its designer, engineer Gustave Eiffel, the tower was built as the entrance arch for the 1889 World's Fair.

We also tried the Seine Cruise, one hour cruise to discover the main monuments, bridges and historical sites of Paris.

Went for souvenir shopping and some stuff for ourselves.

It was almost perfect, until I browsing the setting of my cam and accidentally formatted the SD card. Yes, I did! So went another round of our tour. Now, I am trying to retrieve those pictures as soon as possible. I am really sorry Brenda.

Then we flew back home to Denmark. Visiting Paris is a surreal experience. It was just a childhood dream. And definitely, I will go back there and visit the place again.

Merci beaucoup, Paris!

Onli in d pilipins

Big deal sa mga pinoy pg cnbng ppnta sa airport either galing ung Saudi or Japan. Mas astig kung ikaw mismo ang sasakay ng eroplano or ikaw ang darating. Preparado lahat. Mula sa shampoo na gagamitin hangang sa panyong dadalhin. At kung meron tayong damit pangsimba na minsa sa isang buwan lng gamitin. Meron din taung damit na pang airport. Pagdating sa airport titingin sa mga dumarating. Titignan ang bagahe sabay tanong san kaya galing ito. Pupunta sa letra ng pangalan A-C, D-F etc. Pagnkita na ang target na tao, kakaway akala mo cya lng ang kumakaway o di kaya sisigaw. Bkit kc hindi malalapit sa exit ung hintayan at hndi nanagkakagulo sa pgkaway at sigaw. Sabagay, nakita siguro sa bolang kristal ng gobyerno na kapag nagsusundo ang mga pinoy, klngn mapuno ang isang jeep. Konting usog lang po, aalis na. Kapag nakasakay na sa sasakyan ang sinundo at ang mga sumundo. Kasunod ang isa pang jeep na sumundo din. Isa lang ang siguradong pupuntahan nyan sa Jollibee. Onli in da pilipins!

OFF TO PARIS

July 20, 2010 -- Three hours before my flight, I am sitting in the Burger King. On my left i can see people arriving from the different places. Reasons why they are here is not my business but what the exciting part of it. Finally, they reached on their destination. I know what's the feeling of that finally! Now, what does it feel going home from where you are really belong? Feeling that you will see people the reason why you leave. I want to see their eyes. Surprised eyes, i am different. I want to feel their hugs and kisses. I want to know what words they will say to me. I hope it will be soon.

Sainte Maxime, France (Part 2)

DAY 5 -- Single and Proud!


I saw my friend posted her status in FB. "ELISHA: Im tired of being alone" Then i stop and think. Am i too? But then again I realized that being alone doesnt mean your are lonely and being alone doesnt mean you are cursed! Actually its a gift. How many girls sleep at night peacefully without thinking her bf cheating on her. How many girls sleep with broken heart. How many girls are preasured to get married and have family on her own and how many girls stop dreaming because she's thinking the best for both of them. I didnt say that you need to stop thinking about dating. being in relationship and getting married. I just want every single ladies to realized that being alone and single is a gift and we must enjoy every single day of it. God has a plan for us. A man that will love us back and fulfill our fairytales. But now this a time for us to mind ourselves. Be free and independent. And be a woman that God wanted us to be.

Certified Single for years..:)

Sainte Maxime, France (Part1)

DAY 1

SK 2795 to Nice. We landed at Nice, France Airport and we drove 2hrs to Sainte Maxime, France. It was really late. We just take out pizza from food chain and ate while driving. I know the place is really nice. Saint Maxine is along the cost of Nice, Marseilles and few minutes drive it is Sainte Tropez, haven for actors and rich people. I saw lights in the harbor and I saw yachts. When we got to our accommodation, I didn’t expect that I have my own apartment. My own bathroom, kitchen, dining room, living room. I cant explore the whole apartment because I am really tired. I just took the shower and sleep.

DAY 2

I set the alarm at 6am. I want to see the sunrise but because I was really tired. I decided to get up at 7pm. I really want to see what’s look outside. So when I get up I ran towards the door and opened it then I saw a stunning place. A beautiful place infornt of my door steps. This day was really hot. I tested it. I went out around 11am to explore the place but unfortunately after 15 mins, I gave up. It was really hot! Considering that I am from Asia, I should bear any heat but this is too much for me. We decided to take our lunch in beach. I had tuna salad. Sadly, I cant take pictures in the restaurant because of the half naked and naked people. The beach is nice, the place is like Puerto Galera. The coastline where we drove is like going to Subic Bay and their town is like Boracay. So I didn’t miss Philippines that much. We stayed for 2 to 3 hours. Enjoying the sun and sand and talking about the peoples’ accessories in the beach. Some they have really nice swim suit and some they have something in their eyes while sun bathing and others just silicon. Then, we went home and took of some sands in our clothes and body and we went to the town and had our dinner. As I said their town is like Boracay, they have cozy restaurants and boutique. Farfar gave me white wine and It was really good. So good that I felt dizzy and felt that I am little drunk. I wanted to go back to that place to watch sunset but unfortunately, I felt dizzy. I ate onion tart, pasta carbonara and chocolate mousse. I really like Farfar and farmor, they wanted me to experiences everything.

DAY 3
At long last, i have internet connection. But instead of connecting my laptop and ipod, I decided to take a plunge in the pool for hours and after lunch i took a walk in the town. Along the way i saw a store and i cant resist to buy a clothes. Indeed shopping in France and then took a plunge again in the pool. And true unti unti ng bumabalik ang sumpa! i saw tan line! Then i ended my day watching sunset along the coast.

DAY 4
Morning rituals--plunge in the pool. The whole day i didnt go out. I felt that i took too much sun and my skin is getting darker. I still 3 days more here. Instead i took some pictures from my apartment and study. At night i watched fireworks along the coastline of Sainte Tropez while watching that i miss my family. They love watching fireworks too.

Should I go or Should I stay?

I was in the middle of thought. Thinking if I can make it here in Denmark as a student. The expenses are really high and the first tuition fee needs a lot of discipline from my side. I am also thinking that this might be a sudden decision (again) for me. But while doing chores after dinner, God impressed me what He did when I decided to go to law School. I also had nothing by faith to Him and trust to myself that I can do it. And by His grace I manage do reached until 3rd year. It is His miracle. My tuition fee was above of my salary but I never lack of anything hence It was more than enough for me and for my family. But my question are, why I didnt finish it? Is it really not for me? Why He let me to reach until 3rd and then suddenly I stopped. He answered me back, 'It was your decision to stop and go to another country because of a man.' I am really stupid! I know and it is a shame! I let go of my dream and put them into trash because of a single person and now I am doubting Him if I am called to stay and study here.



I am still praying for the light to guide me. This is a huge decision. And I know He will talk to me in every ways and circumstances. He is still my God. He was my faithful God when I was in Law school, when I gone through my lowest point of life and He is still until now.

BACK TO THE ALTAR

Matagal-tagal na din akong hindi nakapg-blog. Namiss ko to. Bakit? dahil sa dami ng extra curricular activities ko. Hindi ko alam kung san nanggaling ang mga yun. Buti na lang tapos na ang 112th Philippine Independence Day (I'll write separate blog, promise!) Akala namin malaya na kami dahil sa kalayaan. Hindi pa pala. Meron pa, 10th Anniversary of JIL Denmark. Hindi naman ako nagrereklamo. Hindi naman sa tao ung gingawa ko e. I am doing it for His glory. Pero tao rin ako. Nauubusan ng concept. Kung ang computer nga ay mag PAUSE at BREAK e (Hindi nyo napapansin un noh) at kung ang TV nga may SLEEP e (lagi kong gamit yan, pampatulog). Ako din gusto ko. Tapos minsan ko na lang nakakausap mama at kapatid ko. Mas nakakalungkot. At hindi pa yan, habang gumagawa ako ng line up for Sunday Service. Narinig ko ang kantang 'When I speak your name'. Hindi ko na mapigilang umiyak. I want His presence. I want to soak in His presence and cry loud, call His name, sing unto Him. I want Him to be back in my life. I was distracted by other activities. I tend to forget my quite moment. I am looking forward to have it again and go back to my altar.

Hurrah!

May 15, 2010 -- My special day! and also my first time to celebrate my birthday away from my family. Before my birthday came, I had a rough week. I was exausted and tired doing things in the church. I slept past 4 am and then woke up at 7am and continue of what I am doing. Then, when I went home, to my surprise my bike was broken so I need to walk going home. And last wednesday, that was the most horrible and most traumatic experience that I have during my stay here. I had toothached! I was crying the entire night until the next morning and finally I went to the dentist and decided to extracted it but they need to stiched it because of the big hole and they cant stop the blood. So now, I'm celebrating my birthday with 2 stitches in my gums. But still God is really good!

I celebrated my birthday with my host family and thanks to Brenda for cooking. We had sushi, pasta and blueberry cheesecake.

Birthday Syndrome??

Ganito ba talaga pag malapit ka ng mgbirthday? Instead of looking forward that day and be excited, I feel sad and lonely and I dont know why. I feel helpless and ignored and I dont know where it is coming. Yes, happiness is a choice! but i dont know what is happening to me. Is it really a birthday syndrome or it is just i a paranoid again?

Well, its my first bday away..as in miles away. What will happen on that day I dont know. I have no plans. But for sure, I dont want to be alone. However, I have no body to be with. And I dont have money to treat them all. So I decided to spend it alone. Hirap nun wala ka ng friends, wala ka pang pera. Wait..wait..I have plan how to spend my day. Work! Working on a video and..i dont know the rest. Oh well, isang araw lng naman un. Hindi dapat pagisipan ng masyado. But I want to spend it to be special. Cguro hindi pa ngayon kasi wala pakong special someone. Un ang mas masaklap. Mag-isa, walang pera at walang special someone. Oh, well..that's life! I just have to thanks that all of these things are happening. In the future, I know how to give value on the things that I dont have. Smile. Be happy.

This One thing

“…I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead” (Philippians 3:13, NLT).

I dont expect anything this day or this coming days. In short, I am in my normal day to day. Well, not that normal because I have a video to make. I was included in the Independence Day celebration. For this, I am grateful that I can still serve even I am miles away from home. But today, i received an unexpected letter from the Danish govt assessing my qualification. I never expect this anymore coz it took too long for them to response. I just thought that they might not receive my application or I sent wrong application. And I am so happy and overwhelmed. A spark of hope. I dont know what will be my next step. All i know is, this is something really big. If you just faithful to Him, he will remain faithful. And this is really true!

Now, I am focusing on what´s ahead and forget I have been through..

April 1 – Maundy Thursday

“19And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, "This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me."

20In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, "This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you.” (LUKE 22: 19-20)

This is a start when people meditate and reflects on what Jesus did on the cross. This is also my first time to celebrate away from the Philippines. Usually, I am in the retreat and make my self busy on the program. But for the last 2 years, I decided to celebrate it differently. I didn’t go anywhere nor I didn’t have any plane to do something special. It’s my decision. To take time. There’s so many things going on in my head and I cant decide yet what will I do. But this is not my day and let that offer into His hands. It is His day. The day of celebration on how he conquered death and rose again.

Allergy Attack!

I don’t want to be sensitive about what I am eating and what should I’m eating. However, I have a serious problem about my skin. I have an skin allergy, it’s eczema. I have food allergies particularly in chicken, eggs and some seafoods. And now that I experienced winter, my condition gets worse. Dry skin + allergy + poor eating habit = BIG PROBLEM! But I have to make up my mind. This is serious and I am suffering from different side effects. And the bad news is, my only vice triggers my allergies. Because of this, I need to look after what I am eating right now and I should start right now!

There is no known cure for eczema!

Therefore, treatments aim to control the symptoms by reducing inflammation and relieving itching.

Here are dos and donts. (I hope I can live with it!)

1. Avoid dry skin.
• MOISTURIZE! Do it twice a day.
• Use mild soap.
• Watch the temperature of the water. Bathe less frequently. Try going a day or two without a shower or bath. When you do bathe, limit yourself to 15 to 20 minutes, and use warm, rather than hot, water.
• Skip bubble bath. Find a soothing oatmeal or milk powder that will enhance your bath experience, and leave the oils where they belong.
• Skip the Shaving Mistakes or use a moisturizing shaving gel or cream

2. Environmental Issues
• Avoid house dust mites.
• Avoid wool clothes. Use only cotton clothes.

3. Right Food Diet
• Avoid
a. coffee (both caffeinated and decaffeinated)
b. dairy products (milk, butter and cheese)
c. soybean products (soy sauce, miso, tofu)
d. eggs
e. nuts
f. wheat (steamed breads, biscuits, cookies, cakes, breakfast cereal, pasta, noodles, couscous and for fermentation to make beer, other alcoholic beverages)
g. corns


4. Water! Water! Water!
5. Food for the Skin
• low-fat yogurt
• Blackberries, blueberries, strawberries, and plums.
• Salmon, Walnuts, Canola Oil, and Flax Seed
• Whole-wheat bread, muffins, and cereals; turkey, tuna and brazil nuts.
• Green Tea


On the bright side, there’s one thing that I like in this remedy or medication. Salt water bath may help and Dead sea is popular for alleviating skin problems including eczema. It means I should go to Jerusalem!

BIENVENUE FRANCE!

I had a 1-week vacation to France. We took our flight to Geneva, Switzerland and drove to Le Praz de Lyz, France. Though i didn’t see much Geneva but when I saw the view going to France made me feel that I was in the movie. In the setting of Joan of Arc or Lord of the ring. Also in the first part of Angels and Demons in the research lab. Then, I saw my very first sunset this year while we were driving up to the mountain. It was past 8pm when we got to our house and I don’t have any idea about the place. I just grabbed my bag and join the family in their vacation. And for our dinner, Per, welcomed me with cheese experience. I am not an avid fan of cheese nor i didn't find any sense of excitement about it. Suddenly it change during my stay in France, right in front of Mont Blanc. During the first night of my stay, a good old men Per, prepared the best cheese found only here in Le Praz de Lys -- the Mont d'Or. Vacherin Mont-d'Or is the classic dessert cheese. On its own it can replace all other cheeses. It is bake from the oven about 200 degrees. Then, Pour a decilitre of dry white wine over the surface. We ate the creamy and warm cheese with grain bread. Its like my world turn 180 degrees. And the next morning, I didnt notice that i ate cheese for breakfast. So during my stay there i cant wait to have it again for desert.

Best cheese in Town --- Mont d'Or

The next morning, as the sun shine through my window. I cant believe the view from it. I am actually in Chamonix Mont Blanc. Chamonix is situated on the northwest side of the Alps. At 4810 m, Mont Blanc is the highest mountain in the European Alps. It is s a popular winter sports resort town in France. I am surrounded by the snow mountain!

Chamonix Mont Blanc

During my stay there, I was able to discover few things. Like the fried rice with seafoods and squeezing little lemon to give a twist. I haven’t seen that before but I actually like it. And Per said it is the favorite food of King of France. He stayed in Vietnam for years and ate rice during his stay there. Then, strawberry-filled cocktail drink -- strawberry saft, baileys or (rum chocolate and milk) egg white, blended it!!! Another, I agree that France means food. I enjoyed the food around the place. We ate in the best beef in town – Chez Jean de la Pipe. Though, I ordered grilled-pork J. But the most interesting part of it is that all in your plate are well-blended to pork. They had big serving plate and I thought I can eat it all. But then, I just found out that I ate all even the side-dish. And they had a cream potato with mushroom and the potato that they serve are only found in the mount of Chamonix, which is far different from ordinary potato. I also learned to drink wine. I don’t actually drink wine or any alcohol but due to circumstances I am forced to drink..:)

Best beef in town --- Chez Jean de la Pipe

And because of that, I had an allergy attack. Allergy of what..I really don’t know. But what I know is I enjoyed this vacation and I enjoyed the winter at last!

Au revoir, Frances!

CHEESE EXPERIENCE

Best cheese in town -- Mont d'Or

I am not an avid fan of cheese nor i didn't find any sense of excitement about it. Suddenly it change during my stay in France, right in front of Mont Blanc. During the first night of my stay, a good old men Per, prepared the best cheese found only here in Le Praz de Lys -- the Mont d'Or. Vacherin Mont-d'Or is the classic dessert cheese. On its own it can replace all other cheeses. It is bake from the oven about 200 degrees. Then, Pour a decilitre of dry white wine over the surface. We ate the creamy and warm cheese with grain bread. Its like my world turn 180 degrees. And the next morning, I didnt notice that i ate cheese for breakfast. So during my stay there i cant wait to have it again for desert.

Here's te additional infor about Mont d'Or

Keep on moving!

Sometimes, we come across a situation thinking that it would hurt or shattered our life. But if you know by heart and have faith that you conquered everything and moved on and you keep going on in your life. This situation will only prove that you are on the right track. Another season is coming, it only means that something has to end and something must begin. Transition is not easy. It feel uneasy, uncomfortable and sometimes tears flow unexpectedly. But after that, the fragrance of a rose will bloom and will fill your ambiance with sweetness and gladness.
And we should keep moving.

As the snow melts and become waters. Keep moving.
As the waters become part of the soil and dry. Keep moving.
As the soil cultivate a rose and bloom its beauty. Keep moving.
As the rose withered, lost its magnificence and return to the soil. Keep moving.
As the soil covers the icy snow again and bring coldness. Keep moving.
And as these goes round and round. Keep moving.

Let the snowflakes touches your bare hand.
Let the your eyes see the blooming field.
Let the sun burn your skin.
Let the wind blow your hair.
And keep moving!

>>>28 February 2010
10:04pm

Ang pagbabalik..

Ang tagal ko ng hindi nakapg-blog. Hindi dahil sa walang time at busy ako. Hindi ko lang tlga alam kung pano kun isusulat lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Nawala un spark at excitement para magsulat. Pero heto na..bumalik na ulit. Ang pagbabalik...San ko ba uumpisahan..

May isang araw na ”Im pissed off”..yeah..naiinis ako sobra. Parang nagamit ako. Nagamit ang pgkababae ko..ang pinakamahinang part eng buhay ko. Parang hawak nya ang kryptonite at wala nkong magawa kundi sumunod lng. Pero dahil matigas ang ulo ko. Hindi ako sumunod at pinagsabi ko pa. Hanep din ako noh..yun lng pala kapatapat ng kryptonite..tsismis! Well, ginawa ko lang un para maibsan ung inis ko. Ayokong magtani ng galit o lung ano pa man. Kaya heto..ok nko..khit isang sakong kryptonite pa ang hawak nya.. Sorry..wa-epek na..

May isang araw din na ”nangarap nanaman ako ng gising”. May mga sekreto tau sa buhay na kun pede nga lang ay ibaon na lng sa limot un at matuto na lang. May mali! Oo may mali! At ako un. Sympre matigas nanaman ang ulo ko. Kaya ngyon kahit mahirap at masakit. Tigil na..Ayawan na. Nasaktan nanaman ulit e.

I received a txt message from Mama bigla na lang akong napaiyak. Namiss ko cya. Kahit ganun un. Hindi ko masabing nammiss ko na cla ayokong magalala cla. Sabi ko hindi ako iiyak, hndi ako malulungkot para sa knila..tuloy ang buhay!

Stop, pray and listen...

¹¹ “Go out and stand before me on the mountain,” the Lord told him. And as Elijah stood there, the Lord passed by, and a mighty windstorm hit the mountain. It was such a terrible blast that the rocks were torn loose, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. ¹² And after the earthquake there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire there was the sound of a gentle whisper. (1 Kings 19:11-12)

In the midst of unfortunate circumstance or frustrated moments, we often to seek His voice and we expect Him to answer also in a loud voice. In our chaotic moment we also want God to response in chaotic moment. But the true voice will hear in His gentle whisper. Stop and listen. Then, you will hear and find the voice that you are longing for.

I love snow but I hate winter!

As of now, while I am writing, it is -2 degrees outside and tomorrow they promised that It will snow. I am supposed to go to church today. It's been 3 weeks since my last Sunday service. Guilty, yes! It is freezing cold outside. Wala ng nararamdaman un tenga at kamay ko sa sobrang lamig.

Namimiss ko ng magtshirt, pantalon at slippers lang paglumalabas. Magjogging, Pumunta ng beach, gumala. Namimiss ko ng pagpawisan, which is seldom to happen pero at least di ba. Oo na, lagi kong pinapangarap ito at lagi kong sinsabi gusto kong maexperience. Since na naexperience ko na, pwes! tama na..hahhahha..kaso tatagal pa ito hangang March ata. Nyay! miss ko na ang haring araw. Miss ko na ang init nya...nyahahha..basta miss na kita!

Tuloy ang laban..

I read my old blog. My blog for 4 years. And dami palang nangyari. Ang dami palang luhang dumaloy ng mga panahong iyon. Nandun un para akong tanga na hindi ko nararamdaman ang nangyayari sa paligid ko. Numb, bitter, sad, lonely minsan masaya..lahat na. Nagmahal, nasaktan..nagmahal ulit..nasaktan ulit. Ganun tlga siguro. Naaawa ako sa sarili ko nun pero ngyon wala na kong mailuha. After kong mabasa un, prang lahat na ata nailuha ko nun. Sabagay sabi nga ni kuya jeff nun, ayaw na ayaw nya akong nakikitang umiiyak, pero ngyon prang wala na..oo nga naman..wala ng pakialam kun ilang balde na inuluha ko nun. Pero nakakatuwa may mga hidden na pagmamaldita din ako. May storya din ng pagbangon at pilit bumabangon. Napagod ako sa buhay ko nun. Nagpapakapagod para makalimutan lahat ng sakit at kirot. Walang tulog at walang pahinga kahit oras ng pahinga klngng mgtrabho. May blog pa ako nun bday ko nun 2008, ang ginawa ko..naglaba..hahahha..baliw tlga ako.

Isinantabi ko na ung blog na un, hindi dahil sa gusto kong kalimutan na ang lahat. Binabalikbalikan ko pa din cya. Nagbibigay ng lakas ng loob ko un. Kinaya ko nun at kakayanin ko pa din ngayon. Masasabi kong hindi pa tapos ang laban ng buhay. Nagsisimula pa lang. Ngyon ko pedeng sabhin na pinatatatag ako ng kahapon.

Kung tatanungin ako kung may regrets ako sa mga nangyari. Wala akong pinagsisihan at un pa rin ang pipiliin kong buhay kung sakali. Kung may babaguhin man ako sana mas minahal ko pamilya ko kaysa sa kanya. Kaya pinupunuan ko lahat ng pagkukulang ko sa pamilya ko. kahit sariling ambisyon at pangarap ko isinanttabi ko muna pra sa knila. Saka na lng ulit ako. Naging matigas ulo ko e. Sinuway ko sila. Ito siguro ang kapalit ng lahat na un. At tanggap ko na. Masasabi ko ngayon mamamatay ako at mabubuhay ako para sa pamilya ko.

Nahaharap ako ngayon sa malaking disappointment at discouragement. Nahihirapan akong maghanap ng options. Hindi ako qualified. Pero ok lang. Malalagpasan ko din ito at pagdating ng araw babasahin ko ulit ito at matutuwa kasi nalampasan ko nanaman ito.

Umayos ka lng, Urania!