Stop, pray and listen...

¹¹ “Go out and stand before me on the mountain,” the Lord told him. And as Elijah stood there, the Lord passed by, and a mighty windstorm hit the mountain. It was such a terrible blast that the rocks were torn loose, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. ¹² And after the earthquake there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire there was the sound of a gentle whisper. (1 Kings 19:11-12)

In the midst of unfortunate circumstance or frustrated moments, we often to seek His voice and we expect Him to answer also in a loud voice. In our chaotic moment we also want God to response in chaotic moment. But the true voice will hear in His gentle whisper. Stop and listen. Then, you will hear and find the voice that you are longing for.

I love snow but I hate winter!

As of now, while I am writing, it is -2 degrees outside and tomorrow they promised that It will snow. I am supposed to go to church today. It's been 3 weeks since my last Sunday service. Guilty, yes! It is freezing cold outside. Wala ng nararamdaman un tenga at kamay ko sa sobrang lamig.

Namimiss ko ng magtshirt, pantalon at slippers lang paglumalabas. Magjogging, Pumunta ng beach, gumala. Namimiss ko ng pagpawisan, which is seldom to happen pero at least di ba. Oo na, lagi kong pinapangarap ito at lagi kong sinsabi gusto kong maexperience. Since na naexperience ko na, pwes! tama na..hahhahha..kaso tatagal pa ito hangang March ata. Nyay! miss ko na ang haring araw. Miss ko na ang init nya...nyahahha..basta miss na kita!

Tuloy ang laban..

I read my old blog. My blog for 4 years. And dami palang nangyari. Ang dami palang luhang dumaloy ng mga panahong iyon. Nandun un para akong tanga na hindi ko nararamdaman ang nangyayari sa paligid ko. Numb, bitter, sad, lonely minsan masaya..lahat na. Nagmahal, nasaktan..nagmahal ulit..nasaktan ulit. Ganun tlga siguro. Naaawa ako sa sarili ko nun pero ngyon wala na kong mailuha. After kong mabasa un, prang lahat na ata nailuha ko nun. Sabagay sabi nga ni kuya jeff nun, ayaw na ayaw nya akong nakikitang umiiyak, pero ngyon prang wala na..oo nga naman..wala ng pakialam kun ilang balde na inuluha ko nun. Pero nakakatuwa may mga hidden na pagmamaldita din ako. May storya din ng pagbangon at pilit bumabangon. Napagod ako sa buhay ko nun. Nagpapakapagod para makalimutan lahat ng sakit at kirot. Walang tulog at walang pahinga kahit oras ng pahinga klngng mgtrabho. May blog pa ako nun bday ko nun 2008, ang ginawa ko..naglaba..hahahha..baliw tlga ako.

Isinantabi ko na ung blog na un, hindi dahil sa gusto kong kalimutan na ang lahat. Binabalikbalikan ko pa din cya. Nagbibigay ng lakas ng loob ko un. Kinaya ko nun at kakayanin ko pa din ngayon. Masasabi kong hindi pa tapos ang laban ng buhay. Nagsisimula pa lang. Ngyon ko pedeng sabhin na pinatatatag ako ng kahapon.

Kung tatanungin ako kung may regrets ako sa mga nangyari. Wala akong pinagsisihan at un pa rin ang pipiliin kong buhay kung sakali. Kung may babaguhin man ako sana mas minahal ko pamilya ko kaysa sa kanya. Kaya pinupunuan ko lahat ng pagkukulang ko sa pamilya ko. kahit sariling ambisyon at pangarap ko isinanttabi ko muna pra sa knila. Saka na lng ulit ako. Naging matigas ulo ko e. Sinuway ko sila. Ito siguro ang kapalit ng lahat na un. At tanggap ko na. Masasabi ko ngayon mamamatay ako at mabubuhay ako para sa pamilya ko.

Nahaharap ako ngayon sa malaking disappointment at discouragement. Nahihirapan akong maghanap ng options. Hindi ako qualified. Pero ok lang. Malalagpasan ko din ito at pagdating ng araw babasahin ko ulit ito at matutuwa kasi nalampasan ko nanaman ito.

Umayos ka lng, Urania!

WELCOME 2010! YEAR OF POSSESSION!

January 2, 2010


Every year, I always ask God’s word and promise for this year and this will be my guide and I will hold on into it. And to my surprise, He gave a powerful promise:

May God pass on to you and your descendants the blessings he promised to Abraham. May you own this land where you are now living as a foreigner, for God gave this land to Abraham. (Genesis 28:4 NLT)

Yes, conquering the land where I am living now as a foreigner! How to do it and Where will I start?? I really don’t know. I keep my faith that everything is possible to Him and I know He will fulfill this promise in His own time.

This gives me inspiration to go on and dream again. And for this year, these are my goals with prayer, I hope I can fulfill it.

1. To have work permit or student permit in Denmark. This is my ultimate goal right now. I don’t want to be an au pair forever and I really wanted to start my new career by studying or working. I am starting now to find alternative options to stay longer here. I want to stay here for more 2 or 3 years.

2. To visit Paris. I hope this summer I can visit Paris now and if most likely with side-trip again and this time in Germany.

3. Visit 2 more countries. Again, I don’t want to end this year without visiting more countries and probably in Spain, Italy, Norway or Switzerland. Anything goes and anything can happen.

4. To have a birthday bash! This will be my first time to celebrate my birthday away from my family and outside of the country and I pray that God will give a memorable birthday celebration.

5. To finish my Danish Language until Module III. I am now in Module II and I am determined to finish it until Module III.

6. To find new family. Also, this year, my contract will end in November and I pray that I can find family to live-in probably in Norway if I can’t have working or student visa.

7. Christmas vacation in the Philippines. I am excited to have vacation in the Philippines. Even though, it is 2-weeks vacation only, I’ll spend it wisely with my family.

I will possess this land, this is my desire. May God grant the desire of my heart.

YEAR END SPECIAL Part 2

In the mid of the year, I listed down things that I want to accomplish this year. And here it was:

1. To visit Paris, esp. the Eiffel tower. Of course, this is my dream. If I have a chance to visit this early, this year will be the most memorable year in my life.
– I was not able to visit Paris, maybe it’s too early for me to have vacation.

2. To see another country. Two hits in one bullet. (why not??), maybe in Belgium or Netherlands.
-- It is Netherlands and Belgium. Yes, two hits in a row!

3. Start and Finish Danish language. I’ll start at August 10 and end at November. After that I don’t know if I need to proceed to Module II or can I start a certificate now. It depends on the results of my language proficiency.
-- I am now in Module II. And I pray to start my certificate this year.

4. Have a white Christmas. Definitely, I will have but I don’t know yet if I’ll celebrate here in Denmark or with some friends.
-- Yes, I have White Christmas and I celebrated it with my family here and with my friends

5. Have a blast and blessed New Year. I wonder how they celebrate New Year here. This is one of my favorite seasons and I want to know if I’ll enjoy the celebration here.
-- Well, because I came early in the morning from Amsterdam and need to work in the morning. I felt sleepy and tired but over-all I enjoyed their celebration here.

6. Meet new friends. I mean, foreign friends. This is to understand better the culture not only Danish culture but other culture. I hope and I pray that I can meet new friends to expand my contacts here.
--- I have new friends and new family.

7. To find a church. I am dying to attend a service here. Almost one month since my last service and as servant who is working for almost half her life. It is really difficult for me to just let go of Sundays with fellowship. I am really bless right now cos I receive a message that they will have Bible Study near in the place tomorrow and I am invited. God answered my prayers.
--- I am now helping them in their website. I had an article for their Christmas Party.