FILLED OF THINGS THAT WERE DONE IN FIRST 100 DAYS IN DENMARK (DAY 97)

DAY 97---August 23, 2009

I always remind myself the “unfairness” of life and I always remind myself that it not the “fairness” that we should focus on but what are your reactions on this issue. Will it destroy your personality or will it make you a better person? I tasted the different hit of “unfairness”. Sometimes it struck me in the ground and sometimes it brought me to the cloud 9. But let me pour my heart about the unfairness that I’ve going through and until now I’m struggling to get back on the track.

I didn’t ask anything to someone. I didn’t ask for money, time and effort, especially relationship. I didn’t ask them to be nice to me. But it happened. When they asked for it, I embraced it whole-heartedly without a doubt because I believe that every person has sincerity in every action that they made. I resisted to give in and indulge my every moment. And then suddenly, I don’t understand their actions anymore. A question left unanswered every time I encounter this kind of person: Is this how you treat a friend?

I DIDN’T ASK FOR IT. You broke in and entered in one’s life and left a huge damage. And then, everything is silence…everything was left undone…everything for you is ok. Is this your play? Is this the friendship that you want? How can you play someone’s emotion? And I will be surprise if you still have true friends with this treatment.

Am I so evil to treat like this? Am I not worthy to be your friend? Is it too much to ask all of these?

I trusted a person even though I don’t know if he exists. Maybe I am just talking and dreaming of a friend that don’t exist and will not exist. Maybe this is a lesson of continuing to treat people nicely and with respect though you don’t feel to some.

I hope you are happy on your play. You win! I lost but I learned…