A NEW HOPE

For the LORD your God is living among you.
He is a mighty savior.
He will take delight in you with gladness.
With his love, he will calm all your fears.
He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.” (Zephaniah 3:17)

FILLED OF THINGS THAT WERE DONE IN FIRST 100 DAYS IN DENMARK (DAY 99)

DAY 99---August 25, 2009

After I talked to my family, I feel sad and lonely. I feel that I really miss them. Though we are not talking that much inside our house but knowing that they are just around somewhere, make me feel comfortable and ok. Now, I realized that they are important to me, and I think it is not too late to feel that. I am on my 99th day here in Denmark and all I want to think is to see them soon…

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DAY 98---August 24, 2009

I just received an email from a company and they are hiring some people to work for them. I immediately sent my CV and someone called me and I had an initial interview. But there are some requirements that they need to verify if I am qualified. I am not fluent in Danish and I don’t have a working permit here. A company must sponsor me. I waited for this and I want this. I know God will pour His favor and I am holding on the promise that HE gave to me.

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DAY 97---August 23, 2009

I always remind myself the “unfairness” of life and I always remind myself that it not the “fairness” that we should focus on but what are your reactions on this issue. Will it destroy your personality or will it make you a better person? I tasted the different hit of “unfairness”. Sometimes it struck me in the ground and sometimes it brought me to the cloud 9. But let me pour my heart about the unfairness that I’ve going through and until now I’m struggling to get back on the track.

I didn’t ask anything to someone. I didn’t ask for money, time and effort, especially relationship. I didn’t ask them to be nice to me. But it happened. When they asked for it, I embraced it whole-heartedly without a doubt because I believe that every person has sincerity in every action that they made. I resisted to give in and indulge my every moment. And then suddenly, I don’t understand their actions anymore. A question left unanswered every time I encounter this kind of person: Is this how you treat a friend?

I DIDN’T ASK FOR IT. You broke in and entered in one’s life and left a huge damage. And then, everything is silence…everything was left undone…everything for you is ok. Is this your play? Is this the friendship that you want? How can you play someone’s emotion? And I will be surprise if you still have true friends with this treatment.

Am I so evil to treat like this? Am I not worthy to be your friend? Is it too much to ask all of these?

I trusted a person even though I don’t know if he exists. Maybe I am just talking and dreaming of a friend that don’t exist and will not exist. Maybe this is a lesson of continuing to treat people nicely and with respect though you don’t feel to some.

I hope you are happy on your play. You win! I lost but I learned…

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DAY 96---August 22, 2009

I received the Registration Procedure from the Open University. I am happy to see that I can study in few months now. I read the policy and suddenly doubt came --- if I can do it financially and if I am qualified because of terms of residency, I got disappointed. And also, It is expensive. I think I can do many things with tat money---like buying my fav stuff (Macbook or SLR cam) and buy property in the Philippines. I am still confused. May God help me!

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DAY 95---August 21, 2009

SURVEY FROM FRIENDSTER..:)

♥This survey gets a little personal can you handle it?

-- of course:)

♥Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?

-- it's not even worth tryin'

♥Are you single/ taken / heart broken/ confused?

-- lovin' the fact that i'm SINGLE:)

♥Do you get along with girls?

-- so so.

♥Do you think somebody loves you?

-- i thnk soo:))

♥Is it easy to make you cry?

-- yes.

♥Do you find it hard to trust others?

-- yes.

♥Do you like using big words?

-- no..

D♥o you care too much/ not at all/ just enough?

-- just enough:)

♥Have you ever had depression?

--yeah..

♥Do you love someone?

-- I do.

♥What if I told you that you were pretty?

-- really..??

♥Do you get jealous easily?

-- yeah..

♥What about mad?

-- yes. moody e.

♥What about upset?

-- yes.

♥How fast does your mood change?

-- just a sec

♥How often do you cry?

-- :((

♥Ever found out the person you cared most about doesn't care about

you the same way or anymore?

-- yes..

♥How does it feel to be heart broken?

-- :|

♥Are you afraid to tell your true feelings?

-- yes too afraid to get hurt:|

♥Can you honestly say you' re okay right now?

-- yeah..

♥Do you tell people you' re okay when you' re really not?

-- almost always

♥Why do you think so many people cheat on their bf/ gf?

-- coz' they dont love their partner..

♥Why does anyone lie?

-- afraid to tell the truth..

♥Are you afraid of getting cheated on?

-- of course..

♥Tell me what' s on your mind?

-- lie..lie..lei..lei..

♥If you could make your lips bigger, would you?

-- like angelina, why not..:))

♥Do you know anyone that drinks?

-- Yeah..

♥What does your hair look like?

-- bad hair day..

♥How many people do you trust?

-- very few..so please dont spoil it!

♥Are you happy with your life?

-- i'm ENJOYING IT:)

♥Do you have a friend that you've known since you were little?

-- no..

♥What do you usually do first in the morning?

-- pray.

♥Is being single fun?

-- HAPPY:)

♥What color are your eyes?

-- black..

♥Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?

-- maybe??

♥Can you honestly say looks don't matter?

-- yeah..

♥Was today a good day?

-- i hope so..

♥What were you doing last night at midnight?

-- asleep:)

♥Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?

-- i dont know..

♥If you were to die today would your life be complete?

-- not yet..

♥Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

-- nope..i have a unique name..

♥Where will you be in 2 hours?

-- still in the room..watching tv..

♥What are you doing tomorrow?

-- im excited..first day of school..

♥Which girl' s house was the last you spent the night at?

-- jess..

♥Do you have a ceiling fan in your room?

-- none:))

♥Next time you will kiss someone?

-- mmm..i dont know when and how..hahaha..

♥Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?

-- yes..

FILLED OF THINGS THAT WERE DONE IN FIRST 100 DAYS IN DENMARK (DAY 94)

DAY 94---August 20, 2009

I learned a lot today. I learned few words and sentences in Danish though it’s hard to pronounce it but I can write and I know what it meant. I also learned how straight-forward the Danish is. It is either YES or NO, there’s no MAYBE. I am happy that I can study there language and culture. And it is quite interesting

FILLED OF THINGS THAT WERE DONE IN FIRST 100 DAYS IN DENMARK (DAY 93)

DAY 93---August 19, 2009

HAPPY 3^rd MONTH-SARY! Yes, it is my 3^rd month here. I can say that I am getting used to my part-time job and I a getting used to the environment. I am now positive in what I am doing and I am very proud that I can do things now independently and with confidence. I can say that I am well-adjusted now. But the year is not year over and my contract is not over, I know a lot of things might happen.

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DAY 92---August 18, 2009

Today is my official first day of the school. We are 6 Filipina and 1 Malaysian. It was a fun class. We took up grammar and pronunciation. I feel that I am gaining knowledge and I learn a lot. I will be here for few months and I need that. Little by little I am enjoying my stay here.

MORAL LESSON: There is no age in learning.

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DAY 91---August 17, 2009

December 16, 2008 → The Top Ten Resignation Quotes – Astroboy

1. Hunter Lizie – Garbage collector: “Ayoko na! Gusto ko na ng malinis na trabaho.”
2. GorgeousF8 – An officemate once told our boss: “Simula ngayon, wala nang bading sa team mo! Mga babae nalang na mukhang bading!”
3. McDenzel – “I quit. Now na.”
4. Jedi Mstr – “I quit! It’s irrevocable…and very negotiable!”
5. SPY Shadow – “Personalan ‘to, hindi lang trabaho!”
6. Acer – “I resign. And expect me to be your future competition.”
7. SC – “You’re like sandpaper. You scratch & hurt your employees. But in the end, we end up p0lished & you end up useless.”
8. MRD – My boss told me when I was resigning: “Give me 10 good reasons why you should leave.” I told him: “No, YOU give ME 10 reasons why I should stay.”
9. No name: “I quit. I love you.”
10. Cocojam – “Sir uunahan ko na kayo: Im always late! Absent! Caught sleeping on the job! Im fired!”
11. Greg – “Sir, please let me go. I don’t want to end up like you.”
12. Geyp – “THAT’S IT! I’VE HAD ENOUGH! IDEDEMANDA KO KAYO! IKAKALAT KO SA MEDIA ANG BAHO NG KUMPANYANG ITO! Joke! Resign na lang ako, pwede?”
13. Frederique – “You can’t fire me if I quit! Therefore, I quit!”
14. Espeks – Hand over the resignation letter and say: “I know you envy me.”
15. Dru – When my VP asked why I was resigning, I said: “Either I go or she (my boss) does. Since the 2nd is unlikely, I quit.”
16. Specialist – “Hindi BS Coffee-making ang tinapos ko para utusan niyo ko ng ganyan.”
17. Jedi Mstr – “This place doesn’t feel like home anymore.”
18. Philip Ivan Oliver – “The company and I do not deserve each other.”
19. The Wanderer – “This is not the place for smart people. That’s why I’m leaving…and that’s why you’re staying.”
20. Legendary – “One man’s trash is another man’s teasure.”
21. Loi Pogi/Kid Bukid – Balut vendor: “Sawang-sawa na ko sa kaka-hawak sa mga itlog niyong mababaho!”

FROM: Strange Fruit by Chico Garcia

http://chicogarcia.wordpress.com/

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DAY 90---August 16, 2009

Sunday…I am so blessed! I went to the church and I feel that I need to look for other church to fit in. It is traditional Christian church and I am radical but God is everywhere, you cannot judge a place whether you will bless or not. He will touch you the way He wanted and He will bless you with is spirit the way it should be. I am really blessed with the preaching the song though it is old song but I really felt the Spirit is moving in that place.

MORAL LESSON: Let me see the Creator and not the creation.

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DAY 89---August 15, 2009

Magkahalong emosyon ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Hindi ko din alam kung bakit ako nandito at gingawa ang mga trabahong ganito. May trabahong professional sa Pinas. Kumikita ng sapat para sa sarili. Nag-aaral ng law para sa kinabukasan pero mas piniling tumira dito sa Denmark. Magtrabaho bilang au pair, magaral ng Danish Lesson at nagpplanong mag-aral ng IT Certificate. May mga narinig din akong balita mula Pinas kung bakit nandito ako at kinukupara sa anak nila na nasa abroad din pero isang secretary. Napaisip ako, mali nga ba ang naging desisyon ko? Bunga lang ba ito ng bukso ng damdamin at nasilaw ako sa pangalang “Europe”? May mga panahon din na nararamdaman ko na gusto ko ng bumitiw, bumalik sa Pilipinas at manatili sa buhay kung saan ako kumportable. Lumiit din ang tingin ko sa sarili ko din. Oo nga naman, bakit ko pinili dito at sila maganda ang posisyon.

Bumalik ako sa mga rason ko kung bakit ako nandito, kung bakit pinili ko ang daan na ito. Napagod ako sa buhay sa Pinas, may mga nangyari na naradaman ko na kailangan kong humingi ng “time-out”. Nabuhay ako sa mga expectation ng ibang tao. Kailangan may magandang trabaho, kailangan astig ang kurso na kukunin mo at kailangan kang gumawa ng mga bagay na dapat ikaw lang ang gumgawa. Napagod ako. Pinagod ko sarili ko sa trabaho at sa pag-aaral at nang hindi ko na nakayanan ang pag-aaral kumuha ako ng part-time job. Pero para saan? Para sabhin nilang astig ako? Nakakapagod.

Gusto ko lang sabahin sa inyo na, OO, pinili kong magtrabaho bilang part-time baby-sitter kasi gusto kong pumunta ng Europe. Gusto kong maranasan mag-travel at puntahan sa mga lugar na karaniwang sa picture or sa movie ko lang nakikita at para magawa ko un kailangan ko ding mgtrabaho kasi hindi libre ang gastos dito at kailangan ko ding tumulong sa mga kapatid ko at magulang (hindi sa pagmamayabang, baka mas malaki pa sweldo ko dito kesa sa sinsabing “secretary”, take note! Part-time lang ito at tandaan mo kung saan ka galing bago ka naging “secretary”). OO, pinili ko din maglinis ng bahay ng ibang tao para may pang-tuition fee ako. Hindi biro ang tuition fee na gagastusin ko dito. Mas mahal kumpara sa Pilipinas pero ang mas maganda, mas recognized ng European Countries ang course mo tutal may experience naman ako sa isang international company. At para pagbalik ko sa Pilipinas, kahit papano kaya ko pa ding makipagsabayan. Ngayon, sabihin mo? May masama ba sa ginagawa ko? At dapat bang may ikahiya ako sa ginagawa ko?

FILLED OF THINGS THAT WERE DONE IN FIRST 100 DAYS IN DENMARK (DAY 88)

DAY 88---August 14, 2009

I keep myself busy. I just realized that I need to look after myself and think about my future. No one will dictate what I need to do. So long my friend, that’s your choice!

I have new friends Britanny and her family. Thank you for helping me!

FILLED OF THINGS THAT WERE DONE IN FIRST 100 DAYS IN DENMARK (DAY 87)

DAY 87---August 13, 2009

I was praying that God will give me strength to ask my family about my extra job. Then, this morning she called I didn’t expect that. But I am happy! God has a perfect timing!

Also, today is my first day to school but apparently I couldn’t come. But its ok, everything has a purpose. I will make good!

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DAY 86---August 12, 2009

My Mistress eyes
Sonnet 130
William Shakespeare

My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun;
Coral is far more red than her lips' red;
If snow be white, why then her breasts are dun;
If hairs be wires, black wires grow on her head.
I have seen roses damasked, red and white,
But no such roses see I in her cheeks;
And in some perfumes is there more delight
Than in the breath that from my mistress reeks.
I love to hear her speak, yet well I know
That music hath a far more pleasing sound;
I grant I never saw a goddess go;
My mistress, when she walks, treads on the ground.
And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare
As any she belied with false compare.

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DAY 85---August 11, 2009


Once, a friend asked me what my view on sex is. I remember this “editorial view” article that I wrote because I feel that being in Europe I am near in temptation. All of what I’ve heard and seen give me a connotation that sex is fine and it is a must in everyday life. So, I read it and it came back to my mind what my stand really is.

>>January 16, 2009

My view on sex affects what culture we have right here (I know it is different there). We have a conservative type of society. Still, it is taboo to discuss sex, masturbation etc. especially, women to men and vice versa. Also, parents have a hard time to discuss that to their children and many organizations are against to teach sex education in schools. And I think it is the reason why teenage pregnancy is rampant nowadays. They learned sex with their friends and engaged themselves to it out of curiosity.

Sex is more than a union of body. It also a union of mind, soul and spirit. It means is it not just for fun or for lust. Sex is spelled as L-O-V-E. It is a God-given desire, a gift intended to give us pleasure and express our intimacy. But, the church taught me that God intended sex to be enjoyed between a man and a woman in marriage. Same as marriage, sex is also sacred. And I am strongly agree with this.

Same in masturbation, I agree that Bible doesn’t specifically mention whether it isright and wrong. However, all of life's pleasures have an appropriate context. Any misuse of legitimate pleasure has bad consequences. I read in one article “Sexual pleasure shouldn't serve merely as a "pressure valve" for the release of physical and emotional tension. There are more constructive, loving ways to release -- and even to harness -- our physical and emotional tension.” But how?


I don’t deny that I didn’t do these. I engaged myself to it because of love. And I felt satisfaction, love, pleasure and care. I know I should wait. Virginity is the most precious gift that I could ever give to my husband. I thought he is the one. We taught we will end up together. But I don’t regret those things. I’m just a human. I made mistakes but the most important part of it -- I learned. And now, I am very careful and cautious. I want to take every moment step by step. Afraid to make mistakes again. But I am closing my minds that I will not do it anymore. I know someday I’ll give in. As long as there’s a love, I am willing to give myself to him. But I think I’ll be more cautious about it.


Is this subject to a debate again?

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DAY 84---August 10, 2009

WHAT MADE YOUR DAY?

I just received a message in the morning. And it really made my day. A smile was in my face and a glow that no one can take it away. But I know it will not happen, I know whatever that message mean, It will never happen. So what made my day? Just a message that I am not forgotten or even if it’s a lie. Let me live with that lies.

FILLED OF THINGS THAT WERE DONE IN FIRST 100 DAYS IN DENMARK (DAY 83)

DAY 83---August 9, 2009

I feel silence and serenity as I commune with the world. I only hear my scream, shouting to go on despite of weakening spirit. I only hear my sob, crying to the Lord to deliver me with my unwanted situation. This is my free-will however I will never regret this.

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DAY 82 ---August 8, 2009

JUDAS’ KISS

A kiss so passionate and warmth.

A kiss so gently and feeling no harm.

A kiss so genuine and true

Cast away your lonely and blue

A kiss that must give life

Not knowing it’s a knife

That kills your soul

And broke you from whole

And yes, it was from Judas!

One you trusted most

From one who make you own

From one you’ve always known

A kiss…

It kills…

Poisonous…

Everlasting pain…

FILLED OF THINGS THAT WERE DONE IN FIRST 100 DAYS IN DENMARK (DAY 81)

DAY 81 ---August 7, 2009

The greatest pain in life

is not to die,but to be ignored.
To lose the person you love so much
to another who doesn’t care at all.
To have someone you care
so much about throw a party
and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.
To have people think that you don’t care.

The greatest pain in life is not to die,
but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after
another’s great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "Hi".
When you show someone
your innermost thoughts
and they laugh in your face.
For friends to always be
too busy to console you
when you need someone
to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person
who cares about you, is you.

Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored, forgotten
As you have done to others.