WHAT MAKES A PERSON HAPPY?

People think that I am not happy of what I am right now. Others try to talk to me and convince me to let go my excess baggage and move on. Until now I am trying to assess myself, am I not really happy? Am I in the stage of denial? I am weird and different, as I explained it before. I am quite and reserved but that’s who I am. But it doesn’t mean that I am not happy and still devastated in my life. I have to tell over and over again. Being alone doesn’t mean you’re sad and being a single is not a curse, so if I choose to stay like this for AWHILE. I think there’s nothing wrong with that. I know that I don’t have a gift of celibacy, I know that. And CHOOSING not to have a boyfriend is still sane, Yes, my past have a big factor on this. Two love, two men but same fate. And I don’t regret anything about this, in fact it made me stronger and learn so many things, one is don’t depend your happiness to anyone. Believe me. Everything is ok. Everything is fine.

I am sick and tired hearing people asking if I have a boyfriend now, what’s new with my love life and the worst thing; my aunt is worried that I might end up being an old maid. Hahahaha! I know, I know. They are just concern and they love and I love them for that but sometimes it’s getting to my nerve and I fell pressured about this. If I go home and don’t have somebody to introduce what will people think that I am not still getting over it. Come on people! But anyways, life’s like that. As long that I know myself. I know what the real score is. I am not scared.

I am weird and different. Take it or leave it!

I hate my name! U-R-A-N-I-A

Who would give that name to her daughter? Well, my father did! And I hated it. I seldom used it during my grade school days and then one teacher asked me to think of one characteristic begins with my name. And I thought, UNIQUE, from then on, I live with it.

When I was in grade school, I was the first female photojournalist in our school and I got Photojournalist of the Year.

During my High School, instead of competing academically, I focused myself in getting awards as a class and instead of hunting upper year boys, I saw myself bullying the school administration.

When I entered College, instead of trying things like drinking and smoking or doing stuff to test my legal age, I devote myself inside the church. I was the youngest and the only girl who played bass then.

Then, when I worked in the Business Central, Makati, instead of staying late for a party or drinking and bar hopping, I entered Law School, taught English for Koreans and exploring the suburb place of Manila.

And now, instead of taking my own picture profile, I want to take other’s profile and getting the best of it. Instead of reading Twilight Saga, I’m hooked at John Grisham and Dan Brown’s books. Instead of watching romantic movie, I’m enjoying blood, guns and goons. Instead of my talent is singing or dancing. I found myself in front of computer and exploring software. And instead of looking for my future husband, I am in my own room, thinking how to live my single life to the fullest.

I’m weird and different. So what? I can live with it. :)

Unexpected Encouragement from Ptr. Precy

August 1, 2010 ----- While were eating after the service, Ptr Precy suddenly uttered this words: You will going to study here. It was music into my ears and my heart jumped into joy. As if I was accepted in the school and the immigration gave my visa. These are the words that i need from a woman of God. A confirmation that I am on the right track and an encouraging words during the time that i feel to give up.

"Those who are lifting the world upward and onward are those who encourage more than criticize."
- Elizabeth Harrison