Should I go or Should I stay?

I was in the middle of thought. Thinking if I can make it here in Denmark as a student. The expenses are really high and the first tuition fee needs a lot of discipline from my side. I am also thinking that this might be a sudden decision (again) for me. But while doing chores after dinner, God impressed me what He did when I decided to go to law School. I also had nothing by faith to Him and trust to myself that I can do it. And by His grace I manage do reached until 3rd year. It is His miracle. My tuition fee was above of my salary but I never lack of anything hence It was more than enough for me and for my family. But my question are, why I didnt finish it? Is it really not for me? Why He let me to reach until 3rd and then suddenly I stopped. He answered me back, 'It was your decision to stop and go to another country because of a man.' I am really stupid! I know and it is a shame! I let go of my dream and put them into trash because of a single person and now I am doubting Him if I am called to stay and study here.



I am still praying for the light to guide me. This is a huge decision. And I know He will talk to me in every ways and circumstances. He is still my God. He was my faithful God when I was in Law school, when I gone through my lowest point of life and He is still until now.

BACK TO THE ALTAR

Matagal-tagal na din akong hindi nakapg-blog. Namiss ko to. Bakit? dahil sa dami ng extra curricular activities ko. Hindi ko alam kung san nanggaling ang mga yun. Buti na lang tapos na ang 112th Philippine Independence Day (I'll write separate blog, promise!) Akala namin malaya na kami dahil sa kalayaan. Hindi pa pala. Meron pa, 10th Anniversary of JIL Denmark. Hindi naman ako nagrereklamo. Hindi naman sa tao ung gingawa ko e. I am doing it for His glory. Pero tao rin ako. Nauubusan ng concept. Kung ang computer nga ay mag PAUSE at BREAK e (Hindi nyo napapansin un noh) at kung ang TV nga may SLEEP e (lagi kong gamit yan, pampatulog). Ako din gusto ko. Tapos minsan ko na lang nakakausap mama at kapatid ko. Mas nakakalungkot. At hindi pa yan, habang gumagawa ako ng line up for Sunday Service. Narinig ko ang kantang 'When I speak your name'. Hindi ko na mapigilang umiyak. I want His presence. I want to soak in His presence and cry loud, call His name, sing unto Him. I want Him to be back in my life. I was distracted by other activities. I tend to forget my quite moment. I am looking forward to have it again and go back to my altar.