Hurrah!

May 15, 2010 -- My special day! and also my first time to celebrate my birthday away from my family. Before my birthday came, I had a rough week. I was exausted and tired doing things in the church. I slept past 4 am and then woke up at 7am and continue of what I am doing. Then, when I went home, to my surprise my bike was broken so I need to walk going home. And last wednesday, that was the most horrible and most traumatic experience that I have during my stay here. I had toothached! I was crying the entire night until the next morning and finally I went to the dentist and decided to extracted it but they need to stiched it because of the big hole and they cant stop the blood. So now, I'm celebrating my birthday with 2 stitches in my gums. But still God is really good!

I celebrated my birthday with my host family and thanks to Brenda for cooking. We had sushi, pasta and blueberry cheesecake.

Birthday Syndrome??

Ganito ba talaga pag malapit ka ng mgbirthday? Instead of looking forward that day and be excited, I feel sad and lonely and I dont know why. I feel helpless and ignored and I dont know where it is coming. Yes, happiness is a choice! but i dont know what is happening to me. Is it really a birthday syndrome or it is just i a paranoid again?

Well, its my first bday away..as in miles away. What will happen on that day I dont know. I have no plans. But for sure, I dont want to be alone. However, I have no body to be with. And I dont have money to treat them all. So I decided to spend it alone. Hirap nun wala ka ng friends, wala ka pang pera. Wait..wait..I have plan how to spend my day. Work! Working on a video and..i dont know the rest. Oh well, isang araw lng naman un. Hindi dapat pagisipan ng masyado. But I want to spend it to be special. Cguro hindi pa ngayon kasi wala pakong special someone. Un ang mas masaklap. Mag-isa, walang pera at walang special someone. Oh, well..that's life! I just have to thanks that all of these things are happening. In the future, I know how to give value on the things that I dont have. Smile. Be happy.