Loneliness was born in the same very moment as mankind. We can never master it---we have to learn to live with it—just as we learn to live with the snow.

Thinking in Another Brain

I threw myself out

I cannot think me

To see the better world

Or yet better me

I threw myself out

No biased at all

I am part of you now

Let be your call

I threw myself out

To find

To think

To see

We are all the same

Thinking in another brain…

next to normal

eto un panahon na hindi ako pwedeng magalit at pwedeng magreklamo..

nawala/nadukot ang buscard at atm card ko at nawala scholarship ko dahil sa miscommunication sa pagpapasa ng thesis ko pero wala naman akong gingawa tambay at hindi alam kung anong ggawin..

2013: DECADE OF DESTINY

2012 was really good to me, not entirely but I managed to be sane and relax. Oh yes! Super relax, to the point that I missed out few things. I began to be comfortable on my situation. 

I ended my year with not so pleasant things, not what I expected but hey at least I enjoyed. Realizing I didn’t miss anything with my life. 

Every year, I have this “ritual” that every beginning of the year, I need to seek God’s promise for me this year and since that I had to many places, I felt that He let me to experience few things then “I’ll get back to you later, honey”. And when I get back home, I am certified couch potato! But still God is so good. He has his own ways, in His own time to speak with You. 

Well, few months to go and I’ll celebrate my quarter-life. I think this adds up with my frustration and being unfocused,  my “que sera sera” moment should be put on my shelf right now. Here are self-questions from Rick Warren that will help me to focus on my life. This might be rough for me, I will write with my all honesty!

FOCUS YOUR LIFE – The next ten years can be the greatest of your life. They can become a Decade of Destiny, where your life is focused and as a result, you‘re able to make an impact in all you do.

– Rick Warren

PRESENT POSITION:

Where am I now? In Copenhagen. Student.

Where are you spiritually? Thirsty and hungry.

                                Financially? Have credits and credit card

                                Emotionally? Ok.

                                Relationally? Alone but not lonely. Single.  

                                Physically? Process of trying to be look and 

                                                  feel good.

                                Occupationally? Have part-time work.

What would I like to change?

I want to keep the thirst and hunger for the Word. But financially, I want to get out with credits. I am ok emotionally. I can live and survive no fuss about I am always alone. Definitely, I want to have a relationship with someone. I am happy that finally I have this eagerness to look and feel good and work, oh yes, full time please!

SPECIFIC ABOUT YOUR FUTURE:

What do I want to be? Master Degree or Phd Degree holder. Project Manager. Permanent resident.

What do I want to do? Study. Travel. Work.

What do I want to have? Own Family. Own house. 

                                     Permanent and Decent Work.

Why do I want it? Talking about goals and life, this is what I imagine about life. Sounds shallow but having a degree and permanent work makes me feel that I am useful. This is not to boast around but this is self-satisfaction. To know that I live my life to the fullest.

GOD’S PROMISE: “Don’t look at your limitations; look at the promises of God”

Psalm 112[NLT]

1 Praise the Lord!

How joyful are those who fear the Lord

    and delight in obeying his commands.

2 Their children will be successful everywhere;

    an entire generation of godly people will be blessed.

3 They themselves will be wealthy,

    and their good deeds will last forever.

4 Light shines in the darkness for the godly.

    They are generous, compassionate, and righteous.

5 Good comes to those who lend money generously

    and conduct their business fairly.

6 Such people will not be overcome by evil.

    Those who are righteous will be long remembered.

7 They do not fear bad news;

    they confidently trust the Lord to care for them.

8 They are confident and fearless

    and can face their foes triumphantly.

9 They share freely and give generously to those in need.

    Their good deeds will be remembered forever.

    They will have influence and honor.

10 The wicked will see this and be infuriated.

    They will grind their teeth in anger;

    they will slink away, their hopes thwarted.

MISSION POSSIBLE:

Goals                                         Barriers

1. Work                                      Educational Background

2. Study with Scholarship            Qualifications. Financial.

3. Permanent residence                1 more year. Language. Work.

4. BF                                          No social life

5. Travel                                      Financial.

6. Save money                             Credits.

7. Keep thirsty and hungry           Work. Laziness.

next to normal part3

Last night was my second time to watch a movie ALONE. What's the big deal?? ewan ko. I feel that you should someone to be with. But I conquer my fear..hahaha..to be alone?? come on May, you want that (talking to myself) Well, I dont know what happened I just want to watch and contemplate. And also that night, I saw myself looking schools in Vienna and Bern. Why? I dont know. Maybe I am just bored and tired with these bed bugs! First, I want to study more. With my age, ok not normal. Second, other countries, with my financial status, ok not normal din. But this time I want to feel that I am alive. I am living. Actually, I am a living dead. This happens when I get comfortable with the situations. Hopefully, everything will turn to NORMAL.

next to normal (part3)

i hate this feeling..un tipong ginagawa mo ang lahat para maging comfortable ang isang tao and at the end pg ikaw humihingi ng pabor..pahirapan..lintik bibili tlga ako ng laptop ko!

next to normal (part 2)

Nasa skul...
Ang task gumawa ng mobile web application...
Ang problema, walang iphone, ipad or kahit anong smart phone
Ang feeling, deadma..
Nakita nanaman ang Desigual..
Ang feeling, gusto ng umpisahan ang business..pero pano?