next to normal part3

Last night was my second time to watch a movie ALONE. What's the big deal?? ewan ko. I feel that you should someone to be with. But I conquer my fear..hahaha..to be alone?? come on May, you want that (talking to myself) Well, I dont know what happened I just want to watch and contemplate. And also that night, I saw myself looking schools in Vienna and Bern. Why? I dont know. Maybe I am just bored and tired with these bed bugs! First, I want to study more. With my age, ok not normal. Second, other countries, with my financial status, ok not normal din. But this time I want to feel that I am alive. I am living. Actually, I am a living dead. This happens when I get comfortable with the situations. Hopefully, everything will turn to NORMAL.