Worst blog ever!

Kapag nagigipit ka sa oras at pera. Hindi mo maiiwasang magisip ng hindi maganda. Lahat na lng puro nega. Para bang ngfflashback lahat ng nega sa yo at gusto mong lumundag sa tuwa at sumigaw na, isa akong malaking "K". Nasa punto na din akong walang kakausap sa akin na hindi magandang balita ang dala kundi malilitikan ka sa akin. Wag ka ding basta basta sisingit sa mga iniisip ko at mapapatalsik kita ng wala sa oras. In short, hindi ako ito. Hindi maganda nangyayari sa akin. Isa-sahin natin...

1. Hangang ngyon hindi pa ako nakakabayad ng tuition fee ko. Nagigipit ako sa oras. Wala naman akong sinisisi. Miscommunication lng. Sana tanggapin pa ako ng school. Sa dami ng extension ko sa knila, Lord have mercy on me.

2. Nawawala buscard ko. 5 zoner buscard! Nung Sunday ko lng binili. Pinagsapalaran ko lng bumili kasi alam ko after nito wala nkong perang ilalabas.

3. Sumasabay ang host ko sa pagbibigay ng kung ano anong instruction. Magpapaalam na nga ako e. Maghanap na sila ng iba!

4. Wala akong load. Isang importanteng bagay sa akin ngyon. (E d bumili!) Please refer to number 1 and 2. Pano na ang kabuhayan??

5. Pag ngllog-in ako sa Skype. Nakikita kita! Pagnakikita ko pangalan mo parang winawagayway mo sa buong cyberspace ang pagiging tanga ko sa yo!

6. At isa ka pa Facebook. Hindi ko namang intention na mgpost ng ganun e. Bakit nyo pinapalaki nyo?

7. Deadline..deadline sa extra-curricular activities. Actually, hindi naman problema ito. Hindi lang ako makapgconcentrate. Hindi ko maumpisahan at imposibleng tapusin.

Worst blog that I posted. Puro nega. But I cant resist! Hindi ko alam kung pano ilalabas lahat ng ito. Unti-unti ng ngffiled-up sa utak ko. Sumisingit. Nanunuot. Nangangamoy na. Nabubulok. Dapat ng tanggalin.

Promise. Reresbak ako!

Answered Prayers..

These were my prayer request this year. I wrote these last January 02, 2010. He gave His promise to me that day and I always pray for these. And I cant believe that now, October 19, 2010, barely 9 months. He answered my prayers with bonus!

1. To have work permit or student permit in Denmark. This is my ultimate goal right now. I don’t want to be an au pair forever and I really wanted to start my new career by studying or working. I am starting now to find alternative options to stay longer here. I want to stay here for more 2 or 3 years. --- I was accepted last month in KEA as a Multimedia design and Communication student and I know He will also provide my tuition fee.



2. To visit Paris. I hope this summer I can visit Paris now and if most likely with side-trip again and this time in Germany. --- I visited Paris last summer with Brenda though I wasnt able to visit Germany but that was a blast!



3. Visit 2 more countries. Again, I don’t want to end this year without visiting more countries and probably in Spain, Italy, Norway or Switzerland. Anything goes and anything can happen. --- I wasnt able to visit 2 more countries but I've been to beautiful place of France, (Sainte Tropez and Le Praz de Lys) with side trip in Geneva, Switzerland and Nice.



4. To have a birthday bash! This will be my first time to celebrate my birthday away from my family and outside of the country and I pray that God will give a memorable birthday celebration. -- I had a birthday bash. I lost my bike and I had 2 stitches in my gums. This is truly memorable one.



5. To finish my Danish Language until Module III. I am now in Module II and I am determined to finish it until Module III. ---I am in Module 4 and determine to finish Module 5



6. To find new family. Also, this year, my contract will end in November and I pray that I can find family to live-in probably in Norway if I can’t have working or student visa. -- I am reallyy bless with my host family now and hopefully to find somewhere to live in while studying.



7. Christmas vacation in the Philippines. I am excited to have vacation in the Philippines. Even though, it is 2-weeks vacation only, I’ll spend it wisely with my family. --- Hindi pa tapos ang taon! God knows my desire and He knows that I misses my family so much!

I will possess this land, this is my desire. May God grant the desire of my heart.

Never go weary in trusting and believing Him!

You can choose how you will responseto your problems. You can let them make you hard. You can let them make you weak. Or you can use them to create something beneficial. -- John Maxwell

You opened the wound..

You said you know me. You said you will never abandon me. You said you will never hurt. But what are you doing right now. You dont know what damage you made. I dont know how to trust again. I dont know how to love again. This wound will mark forever. A scar that will remind my fears everyday. I hope you are happy now. This is me and this is will I be.

I miss you..

When i woke up this morning. I just felt that I miss you. I wanted to send you a message. I wanted to call you and I wanted to talk you. About everything and how are you, but you made a decision and same here. And I will always miss you.

WHAT MAKES A PERSON HAPPY?

People think that I am not happy of what I am right now. Others try to talk to me and convince me to let go my excess baggage and move on. Until now I am trying to assess myself, am I not really happy? Am I in the stage of denial? I am weird and different, as I explained it before. I am quite and reserved but that’s who I am. But it doesn’t mean that I am not happy and still devastated in my life. I have to tell over and over again. Being alone doesn’t mean you’re sad and being a single is not a curse, so if I choose to stay like this for AWHILE. I think there’s nothing wrong with that. I know that I don’t have a gift of celibacy, I know that. And CHOOSING not to have a boyfriend is still sane, Yes, my past have a big factor on this. Two love, two men but same fate. And I don’t regret anything about this, in fact it made me stronger and learn so many things, one is don’t depend your happiness to anyone. Believe me. Everything is ok. Everything is fine.

I am sick and tired hearing people asking if I have a boyfriend now, what’s new with my love life and the worst thing; my aunt is worried that I might end up being an old maid. Hahahaha! I know, I know. They are just concern and they love and I love them for that but sometimes it’s getting to my nerve and I fell pressured about this. If I go home and don’t have somebody to introduce what will people think that I am not still getting over it. Come on people! But anyways, life’s like that. As long that I know myself. I know what the real score is. I am not scared.

I am weird and different. Take it or leave it!

I hate my name! U-R-A-N-I-A

Who would give that name to her daughter? Well, my father did! And I hated it. I seldom used it during my grade school days and then one teacher asked me to think of one characteristic begins with my name. And I thought, UNIQUE, from then on, I live with it.

When I was in grade school, I was the first female photojournalist in our school and I got Photojournalist of the Year.

During my High School, instead of competing academically, I focused myself in getting awards as a class and instead of hunting upper year boys, I saw myself bullying the school administration.

When I entered College, instead of trying things like drinking and smoking or doing stuff to test my legal age, I devote myself inside the church. I was the youngest and the only girl who played bass then.

Then, when I worked in the Business Central, Makati, instead of staying late for a party or drinking and bar hopping, I entered Law School, taught English for Koreans and exploring the suburb place of Manila.

And now, instead of taking my own picture profile, I want to take other’s profile and getting the best of it. Instead of reading Twilight Saga, I’m hooked at John Grisham and Dan Brown’s books. Instead of watching romantic movie, I’m enjoying blood, guns and goons. Instead of my talent is singing or dancing. I found myself in front of computer and exploring software. And instead of looking for my future husband, I am in my own room, thinking how to live my single life to the fullest.

I’m weird and different. So what? I can live with it. :)