Sainte Maxime, France (Part1)

DAY 1

SK 2795 to Nice. We landed at Nice, France Airport and we drove 2hrs to Sainte Maxime, France. It was really late. We just take out pizza from food chain and ate while driving. I know the place is really nice. Saint Maxine is along the cost of Nice, Marseilles and few minutes drive it is Sainte Tropez, haven for actors and rich people. I saw lights in the harbor and I saw yachts. When we got to our accommodation, I didn’t expect that I have my own apartment. My own bathroom, kitchen, dining room, living room. I cant explore the whole apartment because I am really tired. I just took the shower and sleep.

DAY 2

I set the alarm at 6am. I want to see the sunrise but because I was really tired. I decided to get up at 7pm. I really want to see what’s look outside. So when I get up I ran towards the door and opened it then I saw a stunning place. A beautiful place infornt of my door steps. This day was really hot. I tested it. I went out around 11am to explore the place but unfortunately after 15 mins, I gave up. It was really hot! Considering that I am from Asia, I should bear any heat but this is too much for me. We decided to take our lunch in beach. I had tuna salad. Sadly, I cant take pictures in the restaurant because of the half naked and naked people. The beach is nice, the place is like Puerto Galera. The coastline where we drove is like going to Subic Bay and their town is like Boracay. So I didn’t miss Philippines that much. We stayed for 2 to 3 hours. Enjoying the sun and sand and talking about the peoples’ accessories in the beach. Some they have really nice swim suit and some they have something in their eyes while sun bathing and others just silicon. Then, we went home and took of some sands in our clothes and body and we went to the town and had our dinner. As I said their town is like Boracay, they have cozy restaurants and boutique. Farfar gave me white wine and It was really good. So good that I felt dizzy and felt that I am little drunk. I wanted to go back to that place to watch sunset but unfortunately, I felt dizzy. I ate onion tart, pasta carbonara and chocolate mousse. I really like Farfar and farmor, they wanted me to experiences everything.

DAY 3
At long last, i have internet connection. But instead of connecting my laptop and ipod, I decided to take a plunge in the pool for hours and after lunch i took a walk in the town. Along the way i saw a store and i cant resist to buy a clothes. Indeed shopping in France and then took a plunge again in the pool. And true unti unti ng bumabalik ang sumpa! i saw tan line! Then i ended my day watching sunset along the coast.

DAY 4
Morning rituals--plunge in the pool. The whole day i didnt go out. I felt that i took too much sun and my skin is getting darker. I still 3 days more here. Instead i took some pictures from my apartment and study. At night i watched fireworks along the coastline of Sainte Tropez while watching that i miss my family. They love watching fireworks too.

Should I go or Should I stay?

I was in the middle of thought. Thinking if I can make it here in Denmark as a student. The expenses are really high and the first tuition fee needs a lot of discipline from my side. I am also thinking that this might be a sudden decision (again) for me. But while doing chores after dinner, God impressed me what He did when I decided to go to law School. I also had nothing by faith to Him and trust to myself that I can do it. And by His grace I manage do reached until 3rd year. It is His miracle. My tuition fee was above of my salary but I never lack of anything hence It was more than enough for me and for my family. But my question are, why I didnt finish it? Is it really not for me? Why He let me to reach until 3rd and then suddenly I stopped. He answered me back, 'It was your decision to stop and go to another country because of a man.' I am really stupid! I know and it is a shame! I let go of my dream and put them into trash because of a single person and now I am doubting Him if I am called to stay and study here.



I am still praying for the light to guide me. This is a huge decision. And I know He will talk to me in every ways and circumstances. He is still my God. He was my faithful God when I was in Law school, when I gone through my lowest point of life and He is still until now.

BACK TO THE ALTAR

Matagal-tagal na din akong hindi nakapg-blog. Namiss ko to. Bakit? dahil sa dami ng extra curricular activities ko. Hindi ko alam kung san nanggaling ang mga yun. Buti na lang tapos na ang 112th Philippine Independence Day (I'll write separate blog, promise!) Akala namin malaya na kami dahil sa kalayaan. Hindi pa pala. Meron pa, 10th Anniversary of JIL Denmark. Hindi naman ako nagrereklamo. Hindi naman sa tao ung gingawa ko e. I am doing it for His glory. Pero tao rin ako. Nauubusan ng concept. Kung ang computer nga ay mag PAUSE at BREAK e (Hindi nyo napapansin un noh) at kung ang TV nga may SLEEP e (lagi kong gamit yan, pampatulog). Ako din gusto ko. Tapos minsan ko na lang nakakausap mama at kapatid ko. Mas nakakalungkot. At hindi pa yan, habang gumagawa ako ng line up for Sunday Service. Narinig ko ang kantang 'When I speak your name'. Hindi ko na mapigilang umiyak. I want His presence. I want to soak in His presence and cry loud, call His name, sing unto Him. I want Him to be back in my life. I was distracted by other activities. I tend to forget my quite moment. I am looking forward to have it again and go back to my altar.

Hurrah!

May 15, 2010 -- My special day! and also my first time to celebrate my birthday away from my family. Before my birthday came, I had a rough week. I was exausted and tired doing things in the church. I slept past 4 am and then woke up at 7am and continue of what I am doing. Then, when I went home, to my surprise my bike was broken so I need to walk going home. And last wednesday, that was the most horrible and most traumatic experience that I have during my stay here. I had toothached! I was crying the entire night until the next morning and finally I went to the dentist and decided to extracted it but they need to stiched it because of the big hole and they cant stop the blood. So now, I'm celebrating my birthday with 2 stitches in my gums. But still God is really good!

I celebrated my birthday with my host family and thanks to Brenda for cooking. We had sushi, pasta and blueberry cheesecake.

Birthday Syndrome??

Ganito ba talaga pag malapit ka ng mgbirthday? Instead of looking forward that day and be excited, I feel sad and lonely and I dont know why. I feel helpless and ignored and I dont know where it is coming. Yes, happiness is a choice! but i dont know what is happening to me. Is it really a birthday syndrome or it is just i a paranoid again?

Well, its my first bday away..as in miles away. What will happen on that day I dont know. I have no plans. But for sure, I dont want to be alone. However, I have no body to be with. And I dont have money to treat them all. So I decided to spend it alone. Hirap nun wala ka ng friends, wala ka pang pera. Wait..wait..I have plan how to spend my day. Work! Working on a video and..i dont know the rest. Oh well, isang araw lng naman un. Hindi dapat pagisipan ng masyado. But I want to spend it to be special. Cguro hindi pa ngayon kasi wala pakong special someone. Un ang mas masaklap. Mag-isa, walang pera at walang special someone. Oh, well..that's life! I just have to thanks that all of these things are happening. In the future, I know how to give value on the things that I dont have. Smile. Be happy.

This One thing

“…I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead” (Philippians 3:13, NLT).

I dont expect anything this day or this coming days. In short, I am in my normal day to day. Well, not that normal because I have a video to make. I was included in the Independence Day celebration. For this, I am grateful that I can still serve even I am miles away from home. But today, i received an unexpected letter from the Danish govt assessing my qualification. I never expect this anymore coz it took too long for them to response. I just thought that they might not receive my application or I sent wrong application. And I am so happy and overwhelmed. A spark of hope. I dont know what will be my next step. All i know is, this is something really big. If you just faithful to Him, he will remain faithful. And this is really true!

Now, I am focusing on what´s ahead and forget I have been through..

April 1 – Maundy Thursday

“19And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, "This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me."

20In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, "This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you.” (LUKE 22: 19-20)

This is a start when people meditate and reflects on what Jesus did on the cross. This is also my first time to celebrate away from the Philippines. Usually, I am in the retreat and make my self busy on the program. But for the last 2 years, I decided to celebrate it differently. I didn’t go anywhere nor I didn’t have any plane to do something special. It’s my decision. To take time. There’s so many things going on in my head and I cant decide yet what will I do. But this is not my day and let that offer into His hands. It is His day. The day of celebration on how he conquered death and rose again.